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First Gym Class


Ok so it’s not my first ever, in fact a couple years ago I use to be a regular at gym classes, the instructor knew my name (to my horror) and I would manage to squeeze them in before or after work.
But now, they scare me. It’s amazing how much confidence you can loose in such a short space of time. The things that make me anxious about these new gym classes are as follows:

– Where or which room is it held, I don’t want to be walking into the wrong place to find out its high intensity power lift?
– Will I be able to keep up with the class, or end up feeling worse then when I went in before?
– Can I handle a 360 degree angle of my flubber flying?
– Will I embarrass myself?

I’m sure many can relate to this and it’s been 5 months since I’ve been joined to this gym and only yesterday did I get the courage and motivation to actually step inside one of their gym classes and this was my experience.

So first was the class description- Cardio fitness a fun high energy class. Well this sounds OK said was for all fitness levels so I made the call and booked in.
After work I changed into my figure hugging gym clothes to make sure I would actually go and not chicken out (I find it helps to already be in gym gear).
Feeling hungry after a long day at work and a salad for lunch I browsed the isle at Tesco for a healthy snack and decided on roast chicken slices. Which I then felt too embarrassed to eat in the locker room. I mean it is a bit weird and random to be chowing on slabs on meat in there.
I found studio 1 and went in. My god there was a lot of mirrors I’m pretty sure even the ceiling was mirrored. I stared at my body in the reflection until the class started, I gazed at my newly formed rounded bits, the lines where my gym leggings cut into my stomach and how my arms and legs have lost all definition. This was not a good thing to do- please don’t do this to yourself it, destroys all motivation.
The instructor was a young fit good looking guy full of “can do ” attitude. We started with a rather vigorous warm up and this was the point I knew the next 45 mins was going to be tough. I was already out of breath.

Now most cardio classes I’ve been too either are like Zumba, aerobics, kick boxing or a mix of all of these. So this is what I expected. It was not.
This was more aligned with what you do in insanity. For people who don’t know what Insanity is think; using your own body weight, bear crawls, push ups, suicide runs etc.
I was not mentally or physically prepared for this to the point of where I got really dizzy and my eye sight went all patchy. I pushed through this for a while and then (during a short water refuel) left. Yes I left. Walked out. Abandoned ship. Did I feel good about this decision, no of course not but passing out was also not high on my to do list either.
I sat down for a couple minutes and then decided this is not the end, so hoped on a bicycle and peddled it out for another 20 mins. The dizziness soon went away and I felt proud of myself that I didn’t give up, I just changed direction.

Now I think there was a bigger lesson here to learn….

No I’m kidding.

Happy New 2016 everyone!

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When is enough, enough?

I wonder sometimes If I spent as much time as I do thinking and worrying about my weight and put that energy towards something else, like my career, social life, or creativity what amazing things I could get done? Sometimes I worry that i’m becoming obsessed with weight loss, which if I looked like a fitness model would make sense, but when there are zero to minimal results it all seems unhealthy outlook.

Then I see a picture like this and think F*ck it I want to look like that. Hand me the appetite suppressants.



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6 weeks to go – Sh*t just got real.

This weekend was the start of my 6 week countdown before I embark on my beach holiday adventure! I made some wise choices like sticking to the vodka and sodas instead of the wines… having a subway salad and not a pie…and then I made some…. not so great choices; like eating Indian takeaways for dinner and indulging in the nibbles at my friends house. BUT I will remain positive as tomorrow is Monday and great things start on Mondays! 

Also I ate ALL of my Indian just to make sure it wasn’t there tomorrow. Logical? Not really. Delicious, oh hell yes. 

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My hips don’t lie…

I just came across this artical which came at a good time for me personally, when perhaps i needed a strong word of fact, when I have been kidding myself a tad with fiction! 

How to stop living and dying by the numbers on the scale:

“…Results then can either make or break the effort dial. If we see results, we’ll turn up the dial. If we don’t see results when we want to, the first thing we want to do is turn down the effort dial.

Here is what I can assure you of:

Your body and my body never lie. We can think we’re fooling ourselves. We can think we’re fooling our coach or Body Tutor.

But like every basket counts toward the final score in a basketball game, whether it’s scored in the first 25 seconds of the game or the last 25 – every thing we eat counts — even if no one sees it. Our body never lies.

Individually, each meal and snack we eat might not seem like they matter much but collectively they matter IMMENSELY. This is about the accrued power of thousands of meals and hundreds of workouts.

The amount of effort we put forth really does matter.

Whether it’s exercising for an extra five minutes or pushing through an intense moment of discomfort when we have a craving — every feeling of fatigue, and every period of discomfort we push through, really and truly makes a difference.

Results will happen. It’s not a question of if. It’s a question of when.

Our body has no choice but to work its magic when we’re eating right and exercising *consistently*!…”


The original artical can be found here: http://www.fitocracy.com/knowledge/how-to-stop-living-and-dying-by-the-numbers-on-the-scale/



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Why Vulnerable fat is harder to lose.

One of the things I dislike about being and feeling overweight is the fact that it publicity shows my vulnerability. It’s like my body reflects those moments of weakness, the bad choices and the gluttony that I allow myself to indulge in. The idea around being fit and strong appeals to me because it is more than a physical strength, it also reflects an inner strength and a persistence, a willpower that shows the world I can stop at one bite and I can put up a good fight at the gym.

For those of you that are familiar with Brene Browns work you will be yelling at the screen right now telling me it’s ok to be vulnerable, which in terms of weight loss is very applicable and I agree, as in order to lose weight you have to be vulnerable. It’s those moments when you step into the gym confronting a workout that you know will be tough, asking for help and support whether it’s professional or social, feeling hungry and uncomfortable and accepting that the way you have been living and treating yourself is harmful and can’t continue.

My lovely sister is brought me to the attention of Brene Brown and her work on vulnerability. I am not going to attempt to sum up her work as they are deep and profound and definitely worth a YouTube search, however there are some key aspects that really jumped out at me that I wanted to share with you.

The fear of being vulnerable: One of her main points is how we have formed a society that is scared of coming across as vulnerable, and that vulnerability is seen as a weakness of character. What’s interesting is she also talks about how being brave has been ingrained into our culture, but to be brave without vulnerability is somewhat impossible especially when you look at what the word vulnerable is defined as:

“Exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed either physically or emotionally”.

Therefore when it comes to being brave how can you NOT be vulnerable? Brown talks about how being courageous without this emotional exposure ends up resulting in plain bravado or “fake bravery”, and this fake bravery is one of the things wrong with our society today.

To really confront issues of emotional eating and self image anxiety, I believe it takes a lot of this true bravery. To show up at a Weight Watchers meeting or gym class, demonstrates not only your vulnerability but also your courageousness in confronting doing something about it. Everyone is different in their strengths, some may not have any issues with running in public (hats off to you), and some may struggle to share their body with someone else, have fear of eating in public, being in public, clothes shopping etc. The weight loss journey is a very personal one, and an honest one. If you do not allow yourself to be open and raw with your emotions then I believe you will find yourself going around in circles.

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Oh the horror.

So I attempted to go belt shopping today. My go-to belt has finally worn out and I have some winter clothes that no longer stay up by themselves (Win!).  Feeling a little cocky at the fact I could have possibly dropped a belt size (if that’s a thing?), I sauntered over to the belt section, picked out a few… then causally, without drawing to much attention to myself, put a couple around my hips….On the rack they looked huge, long enough to go around me one and a half times..but to my horror…

NONE of them came close to fitting.

I knew that I couldn’t be too upset as I was in a second hand store so the size range was limited, and as we all know (don’t we fatties) once we get that one good belt, we aint letting it until it starts letting go of our pants! Regardless of this fact, I still felt embarrassed, like the biggest person in the store, and realised that belt shopping is pretty much like publicly measuring yourself again and again. I quickly put them back on the rack, pretending that I thought they were all ugly anyway, who needs belts anyway when I can wear dresses…right?

Solution? Online shopping…

Maybe I should just give up and buy one of these belts!


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Tip #4 Dazzling Soda water

I know how good water is, I know that that it helps weight loss, great for my skin, and pretty much makes life better. Does this make me drink more of it? No. I struggle to remember to drink water, always have. Of course THE ONE thing that I can have more of, as much as I like in fact…. and I don’t want it.

Do I like drinking ? YES! One of my first words was juice, and I’m partial to bubbly things, and milky things and then there are the weekends wines.

But I know that I should drink more, so I tried soda water. I Heard it was what all the cool kids were drinking, so of course I had to try it. At first I found it a bit bitter so added some lime juice, mint leaves, pretty much one step away from a mojito…mmm. Then I got use to it, and started craving that bubbly soda taste.

Now I love it, its cheap, 0 calories, tricks my brain into thinking I’m having a treat and makes a good mixer if you do want a cheeky vodka. Best of all, it got me drinking water! Big smiley face.


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Tip # 3 Where would I be without Steve…via



I use to be a savory person, actually I still am with the added bonus of growing some sweet teeth in my riper years… So now I feel those strong, all body encompassing urges to rummage through the cupboards desperately looking for something, anything sweet. Heck, raisins will do! And yes I have reverted to making cake batter just to eat it. (There was never a cake) or even making icing, (again there was never a cake).

They say sugar’s addictive… I would agree with that wholeheartedly (and so would my thighs). So whats a girl to do??

Let me introduce to Steve…. I mean Stevia.

Stevia is a sweet leafed plant, part of the Chrysanthemum family. The leaves of the Stevia plant have an incredible sweetness that is 300 times sweeter than sugar and are also non calorific. It has been part of the human diet for thousands of years but only since the 21st century, due to demand, has it been used for everyday use around the world. – Nativa NZ website

I don’t use this ALL the time, but a teaspoon in my tea, sometimes over cereal etc. Its a great substitute when your trying get off sugar, my favorite product I buy is Nativa and from what I’ve researched has a lot of positive feedback and not harmful like those other arifical sweetners like aspartame found in diet soda drinks. The great thing about Nativa (No I’m not their spokesperson!) is that you can use it in baking… I haven’t yet to do this yet, but when I do, fatties, you will be the first to know!

So go on, let Steve give you a sweet deal ,lower those calories and enjoy your sweet sweet tea!


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Tip #1 Sensational Celery

Before you sigh out of disgust just hear me out!


Celery is like an edible spoon.  Conveniently shaped to scoop, one can scoop up a filling, and then eat without the shame of eating nutella/mayonnaise/ peanut-butter etc straight from the jar with a spoon, or finger. Thus, Celery transforms this rather primal act from ‘ass’ to ‘class’, in seconds!

What’s even better about celery is that its practically 0 calories. In fact, some people say because it’s so fibrous and watery. it burns more calories then its made up of. That makes it negative calories!

Missing the crunch? Celery is also VERY crunchy- and although doesn’t replace the oil saturated salty goodness of Potato chips, your ass, thighs and stomach will thank you later for that!

My personal go-to snack at the moment is celery and Marmite. A savory yeast spread which I don’t think has graced the shores of America, but should! New Zealand Marmite is the best. Its super low in calories, has a strong flavour and goes surprisingly well in a Cel-dog.


So fatties, now you can have your spoon and eat it too! TRY it I dare you!

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